Saturday, August 1, 2015


diTaip oLeh Amaryllis ♥ at 2:14 AM 0 kOmEn2 uRg

It has been so long, a year more or less. Hey there, I'm 18 years old now 😆 Time passes so fast eh? the first time I write in this blog is when I was 13. I write the most when I'm 14. I didn't write any when I'm 17.

I use to write anything that crosses my mind, anything that happened to me. Any event. Well, right now I'd like to write again. I've been longing to express my mind.

A lot has happens, seriously A LOT. I've been having fun, I've been grieving, I met new awesome peoples, and also bad vibes. I've fallen in love, and beloved, been broken hearted, breaking hearts. I was quite cruel, but also I was a victim.

Last year? I was being kept in a cage.
Foolishly following the orders of some guy that I devoted my heart so much indeed I was a fool. But I'm glad I met him, he was almost perfect but I cannot stand of being conquered so we only last a year.

I moved on. Took some time but I did make steps forward. and then I met the one that gives me back my laughter. He is the clown, the joker, he never cease to make me laugh. But he... ignored me. He took my heart, but ignored me. Idk why but, I'd like to take one his teeth or maybe all of them.

He was the worst of all but the one I loved the most. How can I love someone like that? Idk. Dear heart, why him? fking jerk tho.

I wanna stop now. I'm getting lazy to type lol.
I'll tell the rest of the stories later, In shaa Allah.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

After such a long time, here I am ;)

diTaip oLeh Amaryllis ♥ at 2:15 AM 0 kOmEn2 uRg
Assalamualaikum~ KONNICHIWA! ;) Anyone missed meh? Oh god, such a long time haven't updated ma blog :3 Seriously, like more than a year maybe? Oh well, times goes past. Life has to move on :D I changed for the past few month, I think. maybe I got more mature? maybe, cause' I noticed that I cursed LESS xD hehe. I know you know that my last posts has a lots of swearing in there.. But hey, I was immature that time. :3 I understands that anything we said can picture who we are. Okay sooo... this year, 2013, was a year full with bitterness. But it all ended up with pure sweetness. I've always been so not involved with a thing called..... L O V E. I wasn't interested in it before. Yes, I've a crush before, but doesn't last long cause' I like him only for his appearance >.< Well, we humans like what we see right? Heyy, how do you think of my English? Are they getting better? :D hehehe. Just askin'. :3 So well... where should I start.. hmm. Oh! yes! I forgot to tell you about my PMR result :D I gotsa 7A's and a C >.< Oh goshh, really didn't expected for a C. hahaha. That's geo for me. I dislike Geo -.- . But anyway, 7As is enough though. My dad still buys me a camera, but the one that I asked for, he bought Canon too but a cheaper one. That's enough, ^^ as long as it's a camera. That camera was so cool :O It can zoom so far! like seriously. Wanna know what camera is that? Here it is!

Ignore the messy background -.-"

That camera is fricking cool. It has high quality image and video. But it so high that every time I want to upload a picture I have to resize it first -.- the pixel is so damn big haha. So then here's some of the pics I've taken throughout this year :D

All of these pics were taken on... forgot the date. lol . But it was the last day before holiday :3

There were, other pics -.- but I'm toooooo lazy to upload it. meh :3 Whatever. Okay! Sooo, what's next? hmm -_- . Oh oh oh ! Yes, I was placed in the first class, 4A . Yeah! :D hehe. Kelas aliran Sains :D *tukar bahasa :3* Subjek yg aku ambik,.... tkyah bgtau eh? hahaha. I'm sure most of you know la :D . So, my studies... hmm... Not okay -.- Seriously, susah. Especially, PHYSICS! OH EM GEE. It is soooo damn hard! Every time the teacher teaches, I listen... but I feel like I'm listening to an alien talking. I don't understand a single word. But , the theory... I can understand it :3 except for the............. CALCULATION!! GAH! @_@ wsrxetcdyvbguhinjmo,kp.olouyb. lol :3 Addmaths? So-so. It's fine though but I always forgot the formulae -.- . Chemistry? hummm. maybe 60% the most . :D hehe. The other subject are (y) okay! ;) hehe.

FRIENDS! I got a lots of new friends this year. They are, Wilson Kalong, Kellyna John, Aryantica , Ilah,  and Hajar. :D but we're not that close, except for Wilson. We are kinda close ^^ For the last few month, me, Wanee, Umik, Ain, Rolland and Wilson, build a band, for a band singing competition in my class. We got really close as we always practice together. Our band name is De Majoriter! :D hehe. Why does called like that? i'm too lazy to explain lol. :3 We hang out pretty often too, in school. Wilson, is a very fun person :D quite annoying but I like him just like that :D He had his own trademarks, he always make sounds like "  CHIAA CHIAA CHIAA" or maybe " WUIIDIII". Haha :D weird right? But that's him. And that's the reason people like him :). He is a bestfriend of Rolland, Isyraf, and Harry. They're like ALWAYS together, like a bunch of happy family , :3 Whenever recess, me and this lovely people will sometimes spend time together and laugh together :D. It was very fun! Meeting them is the best thing that happened to me ^^ Ily guys :* ♥♥♥

So, yeah. This is LIFE. Ofc, there would be ups and downs. And that was my ups ^^. So right now, I want to talk a little bit about my downs :') I met this man. He's a sweet talker. But, I only liked him as a friend. His name, let it be AF. He's my friends boyfriend. But he liked me. And I thought, poor girl.. Lied by his boyfriend. And he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I was pretty shocked, and I asked him.." What about her?" He just like "You wouldn't know what happened between us" . I thought he broke up with her. Well, thats what I thought. Idk why the hell I was stupid enough to say "YES". I didn't think carefully. Argh I'm so idiot! I wasn't for long that I get to know that he didn't broke up with her. Oh goshh! I was sooo pisssssedd! I was fooled !! He think of me as a SECOND! SECOND WHAT? SECOND GIRLFRIEND? He's such a bastard! Then I immediately break up with him and stopped contact him. HE IS NOT THE RIGHT PERSON TO SPEND WITH EVEN A SECOND. That two faced bastard. I can't decide which one to slap. hmm. But anyway I'm happy now. I'm happy he leaved, I'm happy that I heard he lost his girlfriend *Evil laugh* Serves you right

 .Okay done about him. Now, this is the next person.... He is very nice. A religious person. He confesses to me,I don't remember well. But he seems very serious. He even thought of making me as his wife, and yet he's 14 -.- What a really mature thoughts.For kid he's age. I think he should be more focused with his studies. He did say that he didn't lose his focus to studies, well that's good to hear but Idk. He always said that he loved me and will always loved me forever and more things like that. I believed him because he was such a nice guy ^^ I do like him but nothing more than a friend. But then one day,  .... I saw him lovey dovey with someone else.... I was seriously sad, dissappointed, feeling of being fooled AGAIN, mad, rage, and more. I was in a grave pain. Why? How could him :'( He lied. He said, he will not look to any girls but he damn lied. W T F. I couldn't take it. I cried so hard. He then apologized to me, numerous times. He said he regretted . But idk. If that is true. I did forgive him. Because I always forgive people whenever they say sorry. I never had the feeling of revenge as long as they say "SORRY" But I didn't forget it. I still want to punch him ;) But we're okay now. We turn out to be like before :) Alhamdulillah.

So then.. There's more I want to say. But, my typing mood now is off -.- haha. I'll tell more next time! ;) Thankyou for reading. It was pretty long huh? hehe :3. Well, then bye bye ! See ya next time. Assalamualaikum ^^

Saturday, October 20, 2012

ただいま。! I'm back home ~ :D

diTaip oLeh Amaryllis ♥ at 9:33 AM 0 kOmEn2 uRg
こんにちはみんなさん. : D Yeah, I'm back . Ohh gosh, Such a long time I haven't checked my blog. And now I'm back. Hoorayy!! LOL :3. Actually, I wanted to use more English in my blog , but I'm not THAT good in english. Soooo, Imma mix it like a 'r o j a k' :D. NYAHAHAHA. (dont mind that laugh) okayy, now The main point of this post is............. nothing . ngahaha, just me typing random things. oh oh oh , I forgot sumthin' .. Right now I'm having ... wait WE'RE having exam-fever-healing holiday (I named it myself :3) We were just had our PMR (omg ! stupid stupid english ! :D) phewwwww, I was seriously sudying hard , and I really really really hope that all my hardwork would WORTH it. I hope I'd get straight A's ! >.<  And if I get it I would get........ CAMERA ! (I've promised my dad that if I get straight A's he'll buy me a camera) AND ITS CANON ! OH YEAHHH!! OH YEAHHH!! :D

I'm pretty confidence with my hardwork. And also I'm quite confident that I'll get what I want.(NOT OVER CONFIDENT). Ohh please please please Allah >.< Ya Rahman Ya Rahim . Jangan kecewakan ibu bapaku yang amat mengharapkan kejayaanku. Amin ya rabbal alamin~

Okayy, done with my prayers :3. 2012 .... Many things happened , good things ... bad things... Arghhh , yeah of course, tears had fallen. Tears of joy, tears of sadness.. but most are the sadness. It's about my friendship..... It's ruin and its my fault. I enjoyed happiness while others suffered in misery. I really didn't notice, oh my ! how thoughtless am I ! nee? :( I'm so stupid ! baka baka baka ! *hits head* I remembered the letter.. All of the content is about what I did that make *nanana* sads/insulted/humbled .. I'm just so EFF-ing sad :(((( . But I thought for a second time... All these times , I've only did bad things to you? I've never did good things to you? I wondered for some times. I wanted to ask... but I was ...... AFRAID. Afraid of what? I don't know.. I don't know.. I simply just not know. So, I just left this question without an answer. I don't wanna know it. I wanted to fix this , but I think its too late. Soo, right now . I'm having my normal life, with my friends I'm having right now, trying to not to repeat my mistakes. Trying my best to make smile. A sincere one. Trying my best for my family. Trying my best for Allah. Amin.(Is that a Du'a? >.<)

STOP ! Enough said with the sadness. Past is past. I can't change it :3 . So now, I'm having a RILAKKUMA FEVER . OH DAMMNNNN its sooo EFF-ing CUTE *__*
Kyaaaaa ~ ! *fan girl screams* Its so dayyuuummmm KAWAIIII ~ :3 choooo kawaiii >.<
Omochikaeri ~~~ *___*...
Ohh ohh ohh  , And also I really love COSPLAY ! Especially guys who cosplay a guy anime character (eg: Sasuke Itachi, Naruto Uzumaki, Kakashi Hatake, Kurosaki Ichigo, Ishida Uryuu, Natsu (from Fairytail), Gray Fullbuster, AND MORE :3)
 Uwahhh *___*
 Chooo KAWAII :3 (I think their both are girls v_v too bad)
 Nice effetcs *___* hot hot
 So cuteeee XD
 Naruto and Luffy(from One Piece) :D
 I want to meet this guy o_o NOW
Ohhh dayyuummm. Shikamaru <3 -melts melts-

Gahhh ! I can't really control my hard beat right now -.- ngahahaha. But seriously they all are Ikemens ! I can't find someone as hot like them here -_- .. Hahaha, Yeahh what an Otaku ( talking about myself ).
Sooo, this is where I'd stop . Its 12:32 am o-o Didn't notice . whoaa, ROFL. Thanks for reading this random post . Hope Ya'll live your live happily. :D Sayonara. Assalamualaikum.

Friday, February 3, 2012

after a long time ~

diTaip oLeh Amaryllis ♥ at 11:50 PM 0 kOmEn2 uRg
waaa... lmak ku x blogging eh ! hahah ! ku nang x tauk glak pa nak pdh tok . 2011 dah abes 2012 dah dtg . =.= aku PMR wahh ~ x sangkak ku dah smpe ke thp tok . ku gk rsa mcm miak form1 jak .. tp, ku xmok maen2 taun tok . ku mok struggle hard ! *FIGHT OH* !!! ahaha ... tusyen pun  dah start dahh .. ada laa malas2 skit mok trun , tp, paksa dirik demi kepentingan drikpun : ) haa.. pa gk nak tulis ohh ? ku mlas mok tulis pa yg t'jdi baru2 tok .. hahaa , tp, nak ari ya aku nyuruh Iqah turun ptg ya sbb ada KK . Iqah mula tek maok tp, x jd sbbnya ada tusyen mlm yaa.. pasya kebetulan juak aku nenga Nenek nya meninggal *Innalillah~* ku rsa mungkin Tuhan x nyuruh nya trun ya .. kebetulan .. ari Jumaat ya x trun nya ... sunyi juak aku xda org pake ngn b'guro .. cmne ndak keadaan nya nek tok ohh ? ku arap nya saba dgn apa yg b'laku n x b'sedih lamak glak .. setiap benda yg b'laku ada hikmah nya . dlok time arwah nenek ku meninggal ku nangis juak . ku tauk pa rsa Iqah ... aku saba ... n skrg tok , aku cuma ada seorang datuk jak . ku hrp umonya pjg dpt nenga keputusan aku pas PMR akn dtg lak .. Amin ~~~ ...

K dahh namo sedih2 lg . : D kite nak crite bnde yg happy2 sket (klaka semenanjung jp) skrg nie kan ~ kite layan Raja Lawak 6 ~ haha .. lawak laa.. aku suke ngn kumpulan Zero n Gman . kumpulan Zero tu dri Sabah , sorg laki tu kan , muke dye mcm Bruno Mars sehh !! mmg abis2 mcm muke dye !! : o ... kulit , rambut , tp , bezenye dye pendek agi dri Bruno Mars xD .. n Gman tu , sorg tinggi dan sorg pendek , aku plg suke persembahan diorg minggu ke 3  ... xD aku skit prot gelak kuat sgt !! haha ! tgk --->

dah aku mlas nak type  agi . jumpe lain kali ~~ bubaiii ! xD

Monday, November 14, 2011

Walaoo ehhh !

diTaip oLeh Amaryllis ♥ at 6:33 AM 0 kOmEn2 uRg
みなさん、こんにちはlong time no see y'all ;D .. rindu kau bloggiee XD . lmak ku x mengepost ehh. aku slalu mlas xD .. n btw. byk crita baru aku mok cerita tp......... ya lah tek.. M A L A S muahaha ! >:D aku n geng 'TERBAEK' nang gila2 abis time nak dekat cuti ( dah cuti dahh) hehe. mlas ehh ku mok crita. apahal lah aku tok mlas ouh ? maka tdik ada mood mok blogging. tuk dah ilang 'semengat' ya tekk. pahal ohh ? ku rsa,, ku rsaa laa.. aku rasaaaa... aku rsa jak tuk ! rsa  jakk.. aku rasaaaaa MASIN ;D . huahuahua. xda lahh. aku tok malas thp gaban. tp, malas x semestinya BODO . malas aku b'tempat. kat skool ' R A J I N ' na aku kohhh ! (eksen) :D apa nak crita ohh ? apa , apa , apa , apa , apa ,apa ,apa ,apa ,apa ,apa ( apa ya pake menoh jak ) apa, apa, apa... >.< omma , omma , omma , omma, omma , omma, omma, omma ,omma ,omma. ( mun x phm eboh :D) n btw. Alice Nine ada lgu baruuuuuu !! " Heart of Gold" kcak lgu ya !

( tgk jgn tak tgk :D)

ooooriteeeeeee ~~~ aku xtauk pa nak crita :D .. sooo, 2cm ! 2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,2cm, 2cm ,2cm ,

- Kau malas nak baca 2cm ya smpe ko x prsan ada 2cn sia,
- skrng tok ko tgh crik 2cn ya tp, ko kecewa sbb xpat nemu 2cn ya. ;D


Friday, September 23, 2011


diTaip oLeh Amaryllis ♥ at 2:37 AM 0 kOmEn2 uRg
HUOOO !! lupak ku nak mdah an ktk org ! aku nek tok da jd peminat J-ROCK / VISUAL KEI / OSHARE KEI !! :D band j-rock ku minat gegilak ialah ~~~

  • the GazettE (play most heavy rock)
  • Alice Nine ( the guitarist, Tora x) i'm in love wit him )
  • D'espairs ray ( had disbanded due Hizumi sickness u_u)
  • SuG ( :3 cuteee)
and thats all c: .. maybe i'll find another j-rock band x) 
    the gazette.
    ~ Ruki is the vocalist.super hot and cuteee !

    ~uruha is the lead guitarist. really really hooott c;

    ~aoi is the rythm guitarist x3.. hoottt tew.

    ~reita is the bassist . :o he always had a noseband. idk why but i heard he hate his          nose cx

    ~ and lastlyyyy kaiii ! the drummer , he isthe band leader too :o.he is superrrrr kawaiii ! x3

    alice nine.
    *shou is da vocalist x3.

    *tora ( my <3 ) is the rythm guitarist *0* - hottestt-

    * hiroto is the lead guitarist. :3

    *saga is the bassist ..hotty2 kissy2 x3

    *andddd naoooo-channn ( actually nao) the kawaaiiiiiii one ! :3

    yg lainn ku xtauk glak..ku cma minat gilak2 ngn cdak tuk ! c: ... J-ROCK foreverrr .

    okee ! abiss ! :)

    Friday, September 16, 2011

    FRIENDS ;)

    diTaip oLeh Amaryllis ♥ at 2:05 AM 0 kOmEn2 uRg
    FRIENDS, do u believe me that I would there for u ? do u believe me that I would help u whenever ur in trouble ?? do u believe me that I would put all of u in my HEART forever ??. ^^ whatever ur answer is, I will still loving u all. :'). 

    to my KAWAN(1)
        SORRY ! kmk x ngn ktk time ktk susah, tp, kmk da nulong ktk tauk x ? mun kmk xda, sapa mok call mak ktk time ya ? :( kmk ada dgn ktk, tp, mek xpat lmak. mek mok mbak ktk, tp, byk dah org angkat ktk alu xda ruang gk. pas mek call mak mek, mek t'paksa balit klas sbb klak ckgu dtg. don't salah fhm oke ? sma juak ngn wanie, Nieya or lain2. (mun ada).. x( mek prg anggap ktk FRIEND ok ? not anything else. FRIEND ! :( mun x cyk, xpa. kmk redha jak. 

    I can't bring this to school . I have to put all of these aside first. I really can't solve it in anyway. I just don't want to LOSE A FRIEND. I DON'T FUCKING WANT TO LOSE A FRIEND. :(((


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